Last night, I was tossing and turning. Thinking about all the things that are oh-so wrong in this world. I exhausted my energies with worry, and then I implored my Heavenly Father to please comfort me. As I often do when asking God for favors, I quoted scripture to Him, when really – plain talk would have sufficed. He already knows my heart – a heart thirsty to be filled up with His love.
“I’m tired, Abba. Worn down. I need your strength,” my spirit said. ” I just need a touch, Lord. Just see me through today.” I reminded him of the woman at the well, who touched the hem of the garment of Jesus and was made whole.
“Just then a woman who had hemorrhaged for twelve years slipped in from behind and lightly touched his robe. She was thinking to herself, “If I can just put a finger on his robe, I’ll get well.” Jesus turned—caught her at it. Then he reassured her: “Courage, daughter. You took a risk of faith, and now you’re well.” The woman was well from then on.” Matthew 9:20-22 (MSG)
And God, in His infinite wisdom and Holy magnificence, brought a very specific thought to my addled mind…. a scene from one of my very favorite movies, Napoleon Dynamite. Because – if there is anything I’ve learned about the Creator of the Universe – it’s that He has a sense of humor. He wants to relate to us.
(Yes, even this guy….)
The quirky film’s protagonist, Napoleon, is just trying to make it through high school. In one of the best scenes, he works up the courage in the lunchroom to talk to the girl he is crushing on, who is sitting at another table. In the most awkward pursuit ever, he commences to woo his girl – who is drinking a carton of milk – with this smooth line:
“I see you’re drinking 1%,” he bluntly states. “Is that because you think you’re fat? Because you’re not. You could be drinking whole if you wanted to.”
Why would the God of the universe bring that scene from the movie (CLICK HERE to see it) so vividly to the forefront of my mind in the middle of the night? Because I’ve been drinking in about 1% of His word lately, and asking for the bare minimum of his power to just get by.
I see you are reaching for a touch of the hem of his garment. Is that because you think you’re not enough? Because in Him, you are enough. You could be filled with Holy Spirit if you wanted to.
I hear you asking for a touch. Are you drinking in God’s love in tiny sips because you think you’re not sure it’s real? Because it is. You could be having the real deal if you wanted to.
Are you asking for less than is already yours because you think only a portion of Me is available to you? Because it’s all here for you. You could be having more comfort than you can handle, if you wanted to.
The “hem of his garment” – the part of Him which is furthest from His heart and still tangible – is flippin’ sweet, as Napoleon might say.
But the heart of Him?
It’s ours, and He wants to fill us with it. And we cannot even begin to imagine the supernatural-ness available to us.
It made me smile, in the midst of my insomnia, that God would remind me of his Whole Power in such a way – a way I could readily understand and even laugh at.
Are you asking for just enough to make it through because you think you’re unworthy? Because you’re not. You could be having the Whole Love of God if you wanted to.
God’s pursuit of us is not awkward, but our acceptance of His love often is. I am learning that Holy Spirit is already in us in full, but our ability to tap into it, to have the Whole Milk Experience, is fettered by our own busy minds and insecurities. Courage, daughter.
Just follow your heart, as Napoleon says.
That’s what I do.
7 thoughts on “The Flippin’ Sweet Whole Love of God”
EXCELLENT! (and I finally, JUST NOW, got signed up so I can leave a comment – sheeeesh!)
Thanks! As I was spending time with God and I felt like I should write about the experience, I said, “You want me to write about WHAT?” Crazy. But he always finds a way to relate to me, to us. I love that about our God.
I love finding like-minded gals like myself. I love Jesus and cuss a little too. I love your humor, and your transparency.
Well, thank you kindly, M’lady 🙂 That means a lot to me! Stick around and you’ll hear a lot about Jesus, and some potty words to boot! lol. Hugs, my friend. Thank you for taking the time to read this!
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Are you drinking in life lite? Because you don’t have to.
Brilliant article, Jana! A couple scriptures came to mind while reading this. Col. 2:10 says that we are COMPLETE in Him. And 2 Peter 1:13 says that we have been given EVERYTHING for life and godliness. Our ignorance of who we are and we what have through our great and loving God is perhaps the biggest obstacle that most of us face. Thanks for this reminder today and keep up the good work! Oh, and Napoleon Dynamite is also one of my favorites. I Have probably seen it a dozen times as it never gets old. Have a great day and “go make yourself a danged que-sa-dilla!”
Thank you so much for taking the time to read the piece! I so appreciate your readership! Napoleon is one of my very favorite movies too. ❤