By: Jana Greene
But those who wait upon God get fresh strength.
They spread their wings and soar like eagles,
They run and don’t get tired,
they walk and don’t lag behind. – Isaiah 40:29 (MSG)
If my life had an allegorical venue right now, it would be the DMV office.
Nobody there seemed to care about rules. The last time I went, there were children running all over, people playing games on their cellphones with the volume up, others having boisterous telephone conversations (mostly about making gravy,) and – I swear this is true – eating the Kentucky Fried Chicken they’d brought in.
It’s chaos in the lobby. And not even the controlled kind. Much like the circumstances in my life right now.
When I go to pick my cattle-tag “next in line” numbered ticket, the printer is jammed. I go ask a worker about it, but she tells me to sit down and wait for my ticket to be called.
“Go sit DOWN please.”
There are four DMV agents on duty and about 40 people waiting. Some of them are moving so slowly, I think they might be walking backwards. One of them finally comes to my aid and tinkers with the machine. When I go up to accept the ticket she pulled, I can feel the eyeballs of the other people waiting bore through my skull. I know what they’re thinking, because I’m thinking it too.
CAN’T WE JUST GET THIS SHOW ON THE ROAD ALREADY?
License renewal is such a PAIN.
See, I know how to drive a car, but the state thinks it’s a good idea to make me come back every 10 years or so and prove that I still remember.
But then I pick up the leaflet about road signs that I am about to be quizzed on, my confidence deflates. They’ve come up with some new ones, folks! We didn’t have those when I learned to drive, back is the Jurassic period. New directional signs, because the dozens we already had weren’t enough to heed.
When my number got called, I hopped up like Charlie when he found the Golden Ticket to the Chocolate Factory, and hustled up to the agent available.
And there I stood with nary an acknowledgement from her that I was there.
A good three minutes I stood there, then six more minutes. Finally she looks up and asked me with cold, dead eyes how I can be helped.
Now at this point I’m feeling super awkward and cannot remember what to do with my face. Smile? Furrow the brow?
Then she rushes (dawdles) through the tests and I’m seated for the dreaded license photo that inevitably makes me look akin to Winston Churchill.
And then it was done…..my license was renewed.
I’d only been at the DMV for 2 1/2 hours, though it seemed so much longer. It always seems so much longer when you are going through something.
It was not the Department of Motor Vehicles fantasy experience I’d hoped for (haha) But it made me think about waiting in a new way.
I know this is a strange analogy. But in this season of my life, I do feel like I’m at the spiritual Department of Motor Vehicles.
I wrangle with outside forces just to find my place in line.
(Do I belong in this line or that? What am I supposed to be doing, God?)
In life, struggling minutes become hours, and while there is activity all around me, none of it is about solving my problem. It’s just noise.
(Lord, I feel like maybe I can be still and know, well…YOU are YOU, if I were in a little less chaotic atmosphere….)
I’ve studied the roadside pamphlet of life, and realized that I don’t know everything. Or even many things. So I try to cram as much of the apparent hieroglyphs into my sad, tired brain.
(Delve into the Bible, eeny-meeny-miny-mo style. Lord I know you are trying to tell me something! I’ll just flip through your Word until a page gets stuck on my hangnail, and that will be the magical verse that gets me through this season in life.)
Wait some more.
A renewal can mean being called in to prove that I still know what I’ve known all my life. God is never content with His children just eeking by. He loves me too much for that. He loves you too much for that. He knows our potential and wants great things for us.
(Why am I feeling like I’m being taken back to the basics in my faith?)
Just wait a bit longer, He says.
I’m too tired to learn new things Lord. I thought we had a pretty good thing going already. What’s up with all this drama? It’s like eerything is happening right now, and NOTHING is happening right now.
(I need to know you are with me in the midst of all of this.)
Wait upon me, child.
But this WAITING, oh Lord. Oy vey, the WAITING! I’ve discovered that what I hate most about waiting is that it gives me too much time to run through a thousand scenarios in my mind, nearly all of which are doomsday in nature. I suppose that’s where ‘lean not on your understanding’ becomes applicable.
God’s timing is perfect – the machine is not jammed. (Sometimes I shake it and yell at it just to be sure…)
Spirit renewal can be a little painful on occasion, but we always have the full attention of Jesus.
And you don’t have even have to wait for that ❤
Father God, Make me more aware of your directional signs and give me the guidance to follow them. I’m so fidgety right now. As you know, waiting is not my strong suit. You know how badly I just want to get this SHOW ON THE ROAD already, but I trust that your plans are exceedingly and abundantly superior to mine. Please just sit in the lobby with me, holding my hand. I do so love you, Jesus.
4 thoughts on “The DMV, God and Me (When Waiting Sucks)”
Oh my do I resonate. I have taken to describing my waiting time as one of Abrahamic proportions. I constantly have to remind myself that God does not need reminding… of course that’s after I say, God I know you know this, but…… Waiting is definitely not for the faint hearted. hang in there Sister, I share your journey.
We are never alone, right? Ugh. Sometimes it feels like God has forgotten me, I’m just being honest. And I’m like, HELLO!? A LITTLE HELP HERE! We all need each other. I’m so grateful for your readership, friend. ❤
On Wed, Nov 8, 2017 at 7:15 AM, The Beggar’s Bakery wrote:
> Jana Greene posted: ” By: Jana Greene But those who wait upon God get > fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles, They run > and don’t get tired, they walk and don’t lag behind. – Isaiah 40:29 > (MSG) If my life had an allegorical venue right now, it wo” >
Thank you ever so much. ❤ Thank you for taking the time to read my work!