Leaning.
Falling.
Listening.
Risking.
Trusting.
Rising.
Living.
The last few weeks have been pretty squirrely for me and my family. We had been prayerful about a number of things, hoping they would just change already. And for a long time, nothing changed. It was if God were purposefully being silent, and it seemed a little spiteful. I forget sometimes that He works ALL things to the good, not just the things on my “Honey Do” God list.
While divine appointments were happening behind the scenes, I made a regular appointment to meet with some divine people in my church. Depression was creeping in like unholy Kudzu, and I know these believers, so strong in faith that they seem tethered to this world only by a cleat of love, would machete that shit right out. I am not being profane – that’s what depression feels like. It’s gotta go.
We met, and they listened. Words that began with a sputter started flowing, as did the tears. I know that in that brief time where two or more of us were gathered in Jesus’ name, powers of darkness were bound, joy was released, and trust was installed. I am ever so grateful that I have a place to go where I am embraced not for my potential as a Christian, but for the person whom Abba truly sees me as. I don’t really have to try so hard. But sometimes I still do. I am learning.
The silence – what I had interpreted as God’s silence – was His quiet machinery doused in the oil of Holy Spirit (that’s why there wasn’t a ruckus going on where I could sense it.) As cogs and wheels turn in a direction that is favorable to us – His most beloved creation – I started thinking about writing again.
When will I learn? He is always forever working things for my good. He is not out to punish me or remind me where I fall short. He is never, ever spiteful. His ways, so much higher than my own, are not subject to human limitation.
In the past few weeks, I have blogged nary a word, but all the while God was instilling words into my spirit. Seven, to be precise.
Leaning. Falling. Listening. Risking. Trusting. Rising. Living. One word for each day of the week; one word for each action I’m currently being asked to undertake. I’ve no idea what ideas it will manifest. I only know I am supposed to write a series about each of the words over the next week.
What will the Creator of the Universe reveal to my puny little brain? More than it can hold, as it pours over into the spirit. And hopefully, into your spirit, too. I have much more use for spiritual truth these days than nuggets of academic matter.
In your squirreliest hour, He is working all things for your good, behind the scenes. Quietly.
I was so glad to see this post this morning – had been missing your writing. I will be praying for you as you begin your writing again, and especially praying for this seven session series God will be giving you to share with the rest of us. I can’t wait to read it!
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Thanks so much! That means so much to me. I miss writing. Thank you for the prayers, they are much appreciated. I am trusting that God will give me the words I’m supposed to have at just the right moment 🙂 God bless you!
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I know He will. Breathe deeply in Him and let Him breathe His Spirit into your soul. I just read a devotional about Jesus breathing on His disciples, and how inhalation equals inspiration. Breathe deeply of the words God is speaking to you. I want to be able to breathe them in as you exhale them. May He inspire both of us!
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I LOVE THAT. Thank you!
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Reblogged this on The Beggar's Bakery and commented:
Hello, dear Readers. I’m reposting the pieces from the Seven Little Action Words series, and hope they might bless you. As always, feel free to share the link.
God bless us, every one.
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Reblogged this on surrender884 and commented:
The way my life has been lately I am learning to focus on Him and post after contemplating what would He say.
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